Archive for November, 2014

I am not so sick!!!!

My pathology labs came back already – holy crap, that was fast!

I was just in yesterday for the biopsy; that was pretty sucktastic – lots of needle pokes. My neck is stiff and sore. It hurts to talk, to cough, to laugh. Sneezing just about brings me to tears.

But… good news!

I am cancer free!!!!!!



I’m Sick, part 2

More news since ‘I’m Sick’….

I went in for my biopsy today.
It was pretty awful but, fortunately, brief.
Six pokes on each side of my neck (lidocaine and the actualy biopsy).
Now it looks like I was mauled by a vampire.
And it hurts to move my head.
I should, hopefully, have the results next week.

Thyroid Biopsy

It doesn’t look like much, much it is really swollen, and very sore.
Swallowing is slightly difficult, but not impossible.
Turning my head is not easy.

Ghosts in the Theater

My troupe mates and I went to check out a potential new space for our dance studio. It’s an historic building, and old theater…. and it’s magnificent!

There are two spaces that we are currently hoping to get (I would really be happy in either space).
The first is an old ballet studio – excellent wood floors, mirrors are already up, big enough to hosts classes, workshops, and events.
The other is the theater.
There would be some work to be done if we got it. Floors would need to be installed, mirrors, etc. It has space for an office, storage, and there is a room large enough for private lessons that could double as classroom space (not dance class, but actual lecture/homework-type class).

The Our Dancing Daughters program would really benefit from either studio. We discussed the potential for having the girls usher, run concessions, or handle ticket sales (supervised, of course) while plays/shows/events go on.
And having non-KCDC/ODD/belly dance events would certainly help supplement income. It is a theater.

While we were touring the building – and getting super excited – we stood on the stage looking out toward the seats. It’s a large enough theater to have big events, but not so large to be intimidating.
While Tasha and the caretaker spoke, something out toward the front of the room caught my eye. It wasn’t much, a flash of…. light? No, it wasn’t bright enough to be light. A shapeless form that, at first glance, looked like it may have been a reflection off some of the hanging decorations. I stood there, staring, looking for it to happen again, but it didn’t.

Tasha and I talked about the space in the car, on our way to the coffee shop for a post-theater meeting with the others. She saw it, too, and definitely felt like there were more than just the 3 spirits for which the building is known. Oh? Didn’t I mention that? Yeah; the place is haunted.

I only saw the one thing, but I felt the others, for sure.

Not once did I feel uncomfortable.The theater was inviting and warm.
I really felt like we belonged there.
Like we could spruce it up and make it magical again.

I think the little girl, Mary, would love to see the ODD girls dancing.
I think she would like to learn, too.

Like I said, I would be happy with either space.
But I kinda really want the theater.

I’m sick…

We just don’t know how sick yet.


I’ve been mulling over whether or not to blog about this, since nothing is definite, but this is a fairly private blog, and no one in my family reads it, so I feel like I can go ahead and vent a little.

A few months ago, I noticed a swelling in my neck. It was around the beginning of the school year, so I assumed it was a swollen lymph node – my friends’ kids were all getting the back-to-school ick, so my friends were sick, so I was sick. As it happens.

Flash forward a few weeks…
I’m at the end of my Ireland trip, hubby gets a cold, so I do, too. Sharing is caring, right?
I ended up with a sinus infection, ear infection, and a pretty nasty cough.
That cough didn’t go away for weeks.
And I mean weeks.
When I hit the three-week mark of this pretty nasty cough (lots of flem, coughing so hard that I felt like I was going to puke, etc.), I scheduled an appointment with a GP.

Turns out, I had bronchitis.
Oh, and that lump?
Had nothing to do with it… so off to get blood work done.
Aaaaaaaand I had to schedule and ultrasound.


After about a week, I get the results in the mail. Bloodwork looks normal; yay!
Ultrasound results look scary. Boo!
Apparently, I have a large thyroid nodule on the right, and two smaller nodules on the left.
The notes included words like “cystic” and “solid” and “FNA recommended”.
FNA means “fine needle aspiration” – a biopsy.

But, I’m not a doctor, and I don’t play one on TV, so I schedule another appointment with a GP to discuss.

It looks “concerning”.
Consult with an endocrinologist.

The endo doc was nice. He was very clinical, and straightforward. He didn’t seem overly concerned, as thyroid cancer is rare and easily treated. But, the size of the lumps in my throat were enough to warrant a biopsy.

While these nodules are huge, they are big enough to affect my swallowing.
And I constantly feel like I have to clear my throat, which is irritating the sh*t out of it.

I’m tired, like, all the time.
And I have very little interest in food. I’ll get hungry, and eat, but I get no enjoyment like I used to.

In the event that I have something like hypothyroidism, that might explain why, despite the fact that I’m in the studio and dancing 4-5 nights a week, I haven’t been able to lose any weight (as a matter of fact, I’ve been gaining some).

It could explain the fatigue.

But I won’t know until I have the biopsy (two days before Thanksgiving) and get the results.

I hate waiting.

I was in a music video!!!

Hey, folks! I was in a music video!!!! Check it out!
I’m pretty excited about this; it was my first time (ever) being on film.

Everyone I worked with was pretty amazing – Tana is one of the coolest women I have ever met.

<p><a href=”″>KATANA DA DON – GRIM</a> from <a href=””>Marlee MacLeod</a> on <a href=””>Vimeo</a&gt;.</p>

Director – Paul von Stoetzel
Producers – Paul von Stoetzel/Killing Joke Films & Bridget Cronin/Pounding Heart Multimedia
Editing & FX – Marlee MacLeod/HyperFocus Productions









Reblogging, because this is so very important.

Dances With Fat

fight backThe CDC has created a tool that they claim will “Assess the costs of obesity as it relates to their bottom line.”  You can bet your sweet bippy there will be lots of swearing in the blog today.

They claim that their tool allows employers to input BMI data and find out how much employees will cost the bottom line based on their “estimations” about prescriptions, hospitalizations, and work days lost.

There are so many ways that this is fucked up that it’s hard to know where to begin.  First of all, the calculation of these numbers are dubious at best for a number of reasons, starting with the fact they are based on BMI which is a simple ratio of weight and height that has many, many problems in this and any context besides providing a ratio of weight and height.  Also, attempts to calculate the costs of obesity…

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Our Dancing Daughters is a big deal for the crew at KCDC.
And now it’s officially a non-profit – yay!

Dancing with Adara Din

We are so pleased to announce that Kamala Chaand Dance Company has officially launched Our Dancing Daughters as a non profit organization in the State of Minnesota!
Our board is as follows:
Executive Director Tasha Rose Hodges
Secretary LaDonna Bartol
Treasurer Becky Munson
Art and Marketing Laurie Howard
Outreach Breana Larson

More info (including our new official logo) is coming soon!

Kamala Chaand Dance Company, Inc. is Minnesota’s premier FatChanceBellyDance®, Inc. Sister Studio and the state’s leader in American Tribal Style® Belly Dance performance and instruction. We operate out of our small, 220 square foot studio in Lowertown St. Paul, Minnesota. For awhile our studio space has worked for us… just over a year! The growth of our troupe and student base, however, has exceeded our ability to house all of our students at one time! Quite a wonderful problem to have. In addition to outgrowing our space, we are…

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